Thursday, July 22, 2010
Roomates.
A few weekends ago, one of my favorite things happened: Ashley came into town.
Ashley was my roommate my first year in college. I remember meeting her so distinctly. I had gotten to Moody first, and was so nervous about who my new roommate would be. Ashley walked in the room, introduced herself, sat down on my bed, and asked if I wanted to go on a road trip with her that weekend. Fifteen hours in a car -and a weekend in North Carolina together- later, we were fast friends.
Ashley is in the process of moving to the Czech Republic to work with Josiah Venture. So it was especially lovely to get a long weekend - including a good friend's wedding and the requisite late night coffee run- with her before she goes.
Ashley was my roommate my first year in college. I remember meeting her so distinctly. I had gotten to Moody first, and was so nervous about who my new roommate would be. Ashley walked in the room, introduced herself, sat down on my bed, and asked if I wanted to go on a road trip with her that weekend. Fifteen hours in a car -and a weekend in North Carolina together- later, we were fast friends.
Ashley is in the process of moving to the Czech Republic to work with Josiah Venture. So it was especially lovely to get a long weekend - including a good friend's wedding and the requisite late night coffee run- with her before she goes.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
blank canvas
A few months ago, I was buying a large canvas for an art project, and I had this thought...
I've gone through periods lately where it feels like nothing is happening, and then through times where it seems like everything in my life is changing all at once.
My stance lately has been to sit back and question "what in the world is God thinking?". But as I was starting to work on this collage, I realized- this time in my life is a little bit less like empty, white, scary space, and a little bit more like a blank canvas.
I really have no idea what God is doing in my life or what the picture will turn out to be, but it's also really not my job to know. I don't need to sit around complaining that I just want all this hard work of growing up to be finished, or worrying about whether my life will look right to outsiders.
God knows exactly what He's doing, and even though I don't have the perspective He does on the picture, I'm learning to appreciate the beauty I can see from my vantage point.
This collage sat blank in my room for a few weeks, and then I painted a base coat, let it dry, drew the outline, started the collage, and right now it is sitting in my room unfinished.
Sometimes it feels to me like God has just left me sitting here, totally blank, or it feels like nothing is happening. Other times are painful as I can feel Him stripping away things that shouldn't be in my life.
But He actually knows exactly what He's doing with me. He's got a plan, and it might even be beautiful. So I think I'm okay with living through the process and trusting God with the big picture.
I've gone through periods lately where it feels like nothing is happening, and then through times where it seems like everything in my life is changing all at once.
My stance lately has been to sit back and question "what in the world is God thinking?". But as I was starting to work on this collage, I realized- this time in my life is a little bit less like empty, white, scary space, and a little bit more like a blank canvas.
I really have no idea what God is doing in my life or what the picture will turn out to be, but it's also really not my job to know. I don't need to sit around complaining that I just want all this hard work of growing up to be finished, or worrying about whether my life will look right to outsiders.
God knows exactly what He's doing, and even though I don't have the perspective He does on the picture, I'm learning to appreciate the beauty I can see from my vantage point.
This collage sat blank in my room for a few weeks, and then I painted a base coat, let it dry, drew the outline, started the collage, and right now it is sitting in my room unfinished.
Sometimes it feels to me like God has just left me sitting here, totally blank, or it feels like nothing is happening. Other times are painful as I can feel Him stripping away things that shouldn't be in my life.
But He actually knows exactly what He's doing with me. He's got a plan, and it might even be beautiful. So I think I'm okay with living through the process and trusting God with the big picture.
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